Yeah so my best friend is moving to toowoomba this week and I didn’t even know until now. It’s so disappointing how people and their priorities change. I’ve always dropped everything for you, no matter the circumstance. Through every break up, mental breakdown and condition diagnosis. Every bad night up until sunset, every birthday, valentines day and anniversary that could have been, but wasn’t. Every pointless all night drive and the roadtrips to see anyone who made your heart happy for the night. I guess I’m just a little heartbroken that my soulmate doesn’t need any of that anymore. I’m glad you’ve finally found your sunshine, but don’t forget who carried you through the storms.
The last few days have been so exhausting. Tuesday night Lillie had the worst seizure she’s ever had and I swear she was going to die in my arms. She then had another seizure while in the emergency vet. She spent the night in ICU and then had to spend the whole of Wednesday hospitalised at her vet and had to have so much done to her. I found she’s going blind and deaf and has a lot of chronic conditions. Yesterday I had to go to work and leave Phillipa at home with her and I took today off, she seems to be doing a lot better. She looks so much better, there’s just something a little off about her. My baby’s been through so much this week :(
I’m so happy and proud for all of my friends who have started looking in the mirror and loving themselves. Or even just liking who they are just a little more as time goes on. I’m trying really hard to do the same but it’s so hard. I hate the way I look today and that’s okay for now.
this is my first monday in about six months that I haven’t spent with phillipa. we’ve had the same days off all of this year and now they’ve changed her days so I only get one day off with her. welp.
i’ve vacuumed (twice), mopped the floor, tidied the kitchen and dining room. dusted the tv/dvd/record stands and put a load of washing on. I might make a raw cheesecake later if my cashews are soaked enough.
this is the first day since last tuesday I’ve been able to get up out of bed and do anything but I’m so drained and lethargic.